Hello my lovelies, this is going to be a rambly post, so bear with! I wanted to just type, have a brain dump about my big step to working full time, and where else is better than my own blog?
Tomorrow I start working full time, for the first time ever. I’ve obviously had jobs before, in fact I’ve worked on and off since I was 16, which was also when I first got ill with glandular fever. But it’s always been part time, and most of the time I’ve rested the remaining days in the week. But not this time, this time I’m going straight into 5 days a week, 9-5. (Actually it’s 8:30-4:30 but that doesn’t have quite the same ring to it!)
To be honest, I’m excited, nervous and very apprehensive. There are a million questions going through my mind; will I manage it? Will I have to call in sick? Will I be able to keep up with the marking, the lesson plans, the paperwork that comes with being a teacher? Will I still enjoy it if I’m struggling? What will happen if I don’t manage it?
Obviously I don’t know the answers to any of these questions, and nor will I until I start. It’s a risk, I know it is, but if not now, when? I need to know what I can and can’t manage. How far I can push myself and what my limits are. If I don’t do it now, I maybe never will.
This year I have the opportunity to just do full time until Feb half term, and after that drop back down to part time (2.5 days / week) instead of having to commit to a full year. It’s actually the perfect plan for me, considering after Feb half term is when my personal life is going to get very busy so it’s a good time to take a step back.
It also means I have time to reflect and think about whether or not I would manage full time the following year, where I would have to commit to a full year.
Teaching is my passion, it’s something that I’ve wanted to do since I was a child myself. A year and a half ago I was told repeatedly that I couldn’t do it and that I really needed to consider other options. So now, to be saying that I’m teaching full-time from next week is absolutely mad. My inner child is screaming with joy – all her dreams have come true! I’m going to be teaching full-time, I’m engaged and we’re planning our wedding! It’s going to be a busy year, but honestly? I can’t wait.
Until next time,