Dear Diary || Ups & Downs

Hello peeps! I can’t quite believe it is August already! You know what that means? It’s my birthday this month! Woooooo I’m feeling 22! Can you tell I’m excited? It’s actually not because I’m doing anything, I have literally nothing planned at the moment other than seeing some friends from school, but I’m just excited to be 22! Anyone who knows me will know I hate odd numbers, and so I’m glad to be leaving 21 and entering into an even age. Also, I was born on the 22ndit was meant to be. I just feel like my 22nd year in life is going to be my year. I feel confident that things are going to go well, and I’m excited for it!
But anyway, this post isn’t supposed to be about me getting excited for my birthday, it’s to talk about July, what I’ve been up to and my monthly update into how I’m doing with my illness.
Not great, to put it bluntly. Not terrible, but not great. I realised last week that each time I went out for a social event, I would be in bed for the next couple of days, and no, that’s not with a hangover! It seems as though my health has taken a slight turn for the worse. I used to be able to go on the odd night out and it wouldn’t affect me straight away, it would take two or three really busy days that week to really cause me to be ill, but at the moment those two or three days have turned into one or two. And that’s ok, it’s not the worst I’ve been, it’s not the best. But now that I know this, I can accept it and pace myself accordingly. I can schedule in days after a busy day to rest and recuperate, and also a couple of days beforehand to make sure I’m well-rested.
July has been a difficult month, but I've got through it and now it's time to concentrate on my health!
I also seem to be struggling with alcohol more than normal. I’ve always gone through phases where I’ve been intolerant of alcohol, where even just the smell or a couple of sips can make me feel ill, but recently I’ve been able to drink it but it’s been making me very ill in the days to come afterwards. Again, not in the form of a hangover! I don’t have to drink very much at all, and definitely don’t need to be drunk for it to affect me and cause me to be ill for a couple of days with all of the symptoms under the sun. I’m talking the extreme fatigue, the chronic pain, the brain fog, the light, sound and even smell sensitivity, the dizziness, the insomnia… I could go on but I think you get the idea!
What can I do about this then? Well the obvious thing would just to be not drink, and on the whole I can do that. I can literally go weeks without a drink, but obviously if I’m going out with friends or going to a party, I’d like to be able to have a couple of glasses of prosecco! So I just have to be really mindful of what I’m drinking, how much I’m drinking, and be sensible when it comes to my health. I’m saying this, when I’m off to the races this afternoon and will almost definitely be drinking… it’s called balance!
After three years, I do find it a lot easier to spot the signs when I’m doing too much and need to slow down, but I also find it too easy to ignore it and keep pushing and then end up seriously regretting it. My priority at the moment is to completely rest and make sure that when September comes around, I am completely rested and ready to tackle 3rd year. I need to have a good routine, with a good and healthy balance with food and exercise and a good idea of how much is too much.
But before I go and concentrate on my health, let’s go back over a few things that happened in July…

Afternoon Tea & Cocktails

This was for my Aunt’s 50th and so 6 of us went out for afternoon tea (the picture above (left) was for just two of us!) and then for cocktails on the quayside. This was then followed by A LOT of prosecco with a quiz night back at the house until about 2 in the morning!

Spontaneous Night Out with the Girls

Italian Day

One of our relatives decided to do an Italian themed party (not fancy dress, just food and drink!) but my immediate family (parents, aunt, uncle & family) decided to take things one step further and dress up in Italian themed costume! We’re a crazy bunch…

I also moved house in July, which is very exciting but unfortunately I haven’t got any pictures yet but maybe by the next Dear Diary I will have some so watch this space! I’ve moved in with two of my best friends in York and I am so excited it’s finally happened! This past year in a shared house has been a complete disaster to be quite honest as some of the people I’ve lived with, I just did not get on with. Out of 5 of us in the house, there’s only one other girl I’m close with now, and she is also one of my closest friends in York so it’s not all bad! This next year should be completely different though as there’s only 3 of us, so everything should be a lot calmer and less stressful!
So there we go! A little update with my health and what I got up to in pictures! I hope you enjoyed it and I’m hoping to have a few more posts out this month than last, health permitting of course! I’ve got a very loose schedule of posts but I’m not putting any pressure on myself to blog if I’m not up to it, but fingers crossed I will be this month!
What did you get up to in July?
Until next time,
Amy xxx (1)

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  1. 9th August 2017 / 6:07 am

    Happy birthday!
    I hope that this new house will be better for you. Living with friends can be a challenge, but at least your there for each other when each other needs help.

  2. 14th August 2017 / 10:08 pm

    Happy birthday for the 22nd!
    I’ve just stumbled across your blog and I can sadly relate to you so much! I also suffer from M.E/CFS and recently wrote a blog post for the first time on the topic. It’s taken me years to get to grips and even tell people about it so putting it out there was a big daunting step for me. I’m thinking of incorporating it more into my blog since I’ve been so inspired by your own! It would mean loads if you and any fellow suffers could check it out.

    • 15th August 2017 / 8:14 am

      Hi Gemma, I’m so sorry to hear that but I definitely think you should talk about it! It’s part of your life and you’d be surprised at how many people can relate! I will definitely take a look at your blog, thank you for your comment!

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