Dear Diary || April ’17
Hello everyone! I feel like it’s been a long time since I’ve sat down and written a blog post just because I’ve wanted to; obviously I’ve been working in my blog series with Jodie (you can read more here) but I haven’t really just sat and written about me, for me. So I decided to do a ‘Dear Diary’ type of post, which I hope I continue monthly as a sort of catch up with you. This will allow me to be completely honest and raw with you, letting you all know what’s been going on during the previous month, what I hope to achieve in the following month, what my goals and plans are, what I’m struggling with, and mostly, just how I’m doing in general.
I’ve seen similar posts to these on other blogs, such as Lauren’s Looks, where she does a ‘let’s have a catch up’, type post and I really love reading these as I genuinely feel like I know that person just that little bit better. I get a better insight into their life, who they are, and I feel more connected with them, and that is how I’d like you to feel when you’re reading my blog.
So I’m writing this at the beginning of April, and as I’ve said, I hope to make this a monthly post, which will hopefully be posted at the beginning of each month! I would love to know what you think about this idea, whether you think it is a good idea or not and whether you would like me to continue doing these! But without further ado, here is my ‘Dear Diary’ for April.
I actually really struggled in March, I’m not going to lie. It has been a really difficult month for me, for many different reasons, one being because I’ve really struggled with my mental health this month. This is mainly due to two presentations I’ve had to do at Uni (which I’ve now done and feel a lot better about!) but during the weeks running up to these presentations, anxiety was playing a massive part in my life, and I was finding it really hard to stay in control of it all. You can read more about my anxiety and what I do to help it here. Consequently, this was causing me to feel very down, and actually quite depressed at times, so yes, March has been difficult for me.
That is okay though, because it is now April, so I am putting March behind me and using it as a good experience that I can look back on and feel proud that I got through the month. I was strong and I did manage to do those presentations, and that should be something I feel proud about, and I really do.
However, because it was such a difficult month, it has really affected my health and fitness journey, as I have resorted to quick, easy and convenient snacky foods quite a lot, which are clearly not very healthy, and I haven’t managed to go to the gym a huge amount during this time either, due to chronic illness flare ups being caused by my mental health issues – it’s all gone on in March!
But again, I am not going to dwell on this, I am going to accept that March has not been my month, and move on. I have gone through that whole month, while sticking to what I gave up for lent, which was takeaways (you can read more about that here) and I have not had a single takeaway now since Pancake Day. I constantly remind myself that this is a MASSIVE ACHIEVEMENT, and again, is something that I should feel very proud about, and I do, I am so proud of myself for doing this. Despite eating more snacky crap, I haven’t had any takeaways, and I do feel a lot better in myself for that. AND, I have actually lost about 2 pounds so again, that is something I am so happy about and is huge for me!
So, I guess what I am trying to say now is that you can still have a bad day, a bad week, or a bad month in my case, but you can still get through it, and you should feel proud for coping and getting through it.
ANYWAY, that’s enough of talking about the previous month – let’s focus on April!
What am I getting up to in April?
Well, it’s the Easter holidays now, so I am using this time to really rest and recuperate after March – I definitely need it! I am also going to use this time to really focus on my health and fitness journey. I’ve been spurred on by my 2 pound weight loss, and I’m more determined than ever to make some more progress.
This first week, I am going to go super strict and super healthy, to kick-start this month, and really focus on me. I need to do this every now and then to give my body a chance to catch up, and my brain a chance to relax. So this week I’m going to catch up on TV shows, get to the gym, eat health, and just have a ‘me’ week.
Following this, I am going home for a couple of weeks to spend time with my family and some friends back at home. This involves going to see Mamma Mia at the theatre with my parents, and also, Mum and I are going to see Caro Emerald in Harrogate towards the end of the month as part of my 21st birthday!
So I have a few things to look forward to in April, and plenty of time to concentrate on myself for a bit before I get back to Uni in the last week!
As part of this monthly catch up, I want to start sharing my monthly goals with you, in the hope that this will keep me accountable and I might actually achieve some of them! So for this month, it is going to be mainly health and fitness related, as part of my kick-start!
- Drink 2L water a day
- Exercise 2-3 times every week
- Eat more greens
- Catch up with the soaps
- Finish watching Gossip Girl
- Post a blog post twice a week
- Take more pictures
So that’s it from me today, and I hope to do this again in May so I really do hope you’ve enjoyed it! Please let me know what you thought, and if you would like me to do this more often. I really liked doing this and I actually think it was good for me to do this as it has allowed me to reflect on March, and look forward to April!
What are your plans for April?